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A Message From an Abortion Survivor

Abortion is a hot button for many, but who has contemplated being on the other end?

 

As much as I promised myself I wouldn't touch the topic of abortion, I feel I must share my story. Perhaps there are other abortion-survivors who can relate.

People discuss the issue as if it’s nothing more than whether we should increase the driving age to 18. For some of us, it’s much, much more.

I’m only here because my parents chose life. And I mean that literally.

My mom was a high school senior when she discovered she was pregnant with me. It was never a secret to me. I’ve always understood that I was unplanned -- perhaps, at one point, unwanted.

My parents "fell in love" when my mom was 15, my dad 17. They carried on a typical high school relationship. They never imagined their future would be determined by an unplanned pregnancy. Yet it was. My mom was 17 when she got pregnant. 

They had the option, of course … to take the easy route and abort me. It was the simplest plan. Some people encouraged it, saying it would allow them to live their lives.

"Just ‘get rid of it’ and move on. Be happy," was the consensus.

But rather than take the quick fix, my dad told my mom he would marry her. It wouldn’t be easy, but they could make it work. She was 18 when they married.

It meant this beautiful young woman, who was a straight-A student, talented pianist, and skilled equestrian had to put her dreams on hold to become a teen mom. What girl dreams of that?

But she agreed and chose LIFE. She chose ME. And am I ever glad she did.

I know it was extremely difficult (we lived in a bus, for real). I know there were many moments filled with tears and despair. Yet through it all, my parents raised a person who succeeded in school, went to college, and now devotes time to help others. I feel it’s the least I can do to give back.

I've been given a chance.

I usually keep my mouth shut when the word "abortion" pops up in conversation. It’s a very sensitive subject for me. Not only was I almost a victim of it, but I also unwillingly lost a baby to miscarriage at nine weeks.

That experience solidified my perception of "life." There was no turning back after that.

I saw that little baby on the ultrasound. Then I lost it. It tore me apart to think there are some people who CHOOSE to dispose of their nine-week-old babies. Did they see them, I wonder?

Termination, abortion, elimination...we can call it whatever we want, but when something is growing and has a heartbeat, it is killing when one chooses to put an end to it. The alternative would be letting it live. Simple truth.

I suppose I value life in a different way than some as a result of my circumstances.

So thank you mom and dad for giving me the chance to prove what I could do. Thank you for your sacrifices and your tears.

I love life and will strive to put it to good use, for that is why we’re here, isn’t it?

Related Topics: Giving Back, Mountain View, abortion, and miscarriage

Lee Snover

6:54 am on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Thank you for sharing your story.

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Keri Waldman

7:35 am on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I absolutely agree .. I often think that I could have been aborted as well. My birth mother was also 17. She chose adoption, but I know how easy it would have been to do otherwise. Thank you for sharing!

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WRVinovskis

7:43 am on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

We're all glad you're alive, too. Thanks for making our community a better place, Jenae.

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Nancy O'Keefe

8:51 am on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Wonderful story, Jenae. Thank you for sharing...and thank you for referring to the unborn as a "baby" and not a "fetus" or any of the other euphemisms we've heard.

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Missy Moyer-Schneck

11:04 am on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I have never even personally met you....yet.....and I'm glad your parents chose life....great story

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Gregorio

11:48 am on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I am concerned with the child who is not aborted and is born into a hostile non-loving environment with abuse and anger as a lifestyle. Sometime abortions are necessary due to age, rape or just financial reasoning, the united States supreme court says it is legal and I believe is is a womans right to choose, those against abortion should be willing to adopt those children from interacial and inner city crack pregnancies...well in the long run I guess those who dont get abortions and depend on everyone else tax dollars for welfare hand outs to raise a burden to society that is where the drug users and prostituting strippers come from, god bless.

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Lee Snover

4:27 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Give me a break Gregorio. The number of abortions performed for anything close to "legitimate" reasons is relatively small. There are PLENTY of people willing to adopt these "crack babies" as you call them. I know such folks and their adopted kids personally, and they would not trade them for the world.

Most abortions come down to selfishness. This is what people simply don't want to admit. Your willing to take a life so you don't have to be "inconvenienced", or suffer humility, or financial repercussions. Let's celebrate those who choose to be selfless in these circumstances!

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Jeff Ames

5:32 pm on Saturday, September 22, 2012

You may be happy know that there are indeed, many who are willing to adopt "unwanted" babies. However, to assert that those who are against abortion should be willing to adopt the 'interracial and inner city crack pregnancies' is like saying that anyone who is against robbery should be willing to give money to the robbers so they don't commit that crime. We are all responsible for our own choices, and those choices are sometimes WRONG! That being said, there are many compassionate people and organizations whose goal is to help women and children (and men too) in bad situations like this. Just because something is legal doesn't make it right.

Fr. Andrew S. Damick

1:27 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

This very much reminds me of the story of Gianna Jessen, whose mother sadly did not choose life, yet was born alive after being aborted: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5YlJ9CZ9fI

(Jessen now frequently gives talks about her experiences.)

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Jenae Holtzhafer

3:42 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

This was powerful! Thanks Fr. Damick! What an amazing woman.

Amy

3:40 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

In order to be an "abortion survivor," one's mother must have had an abortion.

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careless fills

4:21 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

So we can call the author a "choice survivor". After all, pro choice advocates don't like to refer to the real word. The irony is amusing.

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Jennifer Starr

10:36 am on Sunday, June 3, 2012

I agree with Amy. In order to be a survivor, your mother must have actually attempted the abortion procedure. The fact that the choice was available doesn't mean that you survived it. I've heard people say that anyone born after '73 is an 'abortion survivor', which is just ridiculous. If I go swimming and don't drown does that make me a drowning survivor? I don't mean to play semantics, but there are actually people out there who have survived actual abortion attempts. They can claim that title, but not the author.

Susan Snapile

6:23 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

seems to me it is contradictory, being against abortion and birth control, i am sorry but I like sex without the chance of having children and love the pill. If the churches are going to be against abortion they should be morally obligated to endorse birth control on some level.

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Fr. Andrew S. Damick

6:26 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Why? Your comment only seems to make sense if churches agree with the sentiment in the last clause of your first sentence, i.e., you are requiring that they give up their doctrinal teachings about abstinence and the purpose of sex. Shouldn't churches be permitted to decide their own doctrine for themselves and then to act according to it?

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Lee Snover

7:18 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Susan, most denominations are not anti-birth control. Churches can decide their theology, and people are free to choose a Church or not. No one should force you to believe in any particular way, and no one should dictate what a Church should or should not teach.

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careless fills

8:09 am on Wednesday, February 22, 2012

http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/ticket/not-just-catholic-controversy-protestant-colleges-threaten-drop-232819956.html Title speaks for itself, but interesting article.

Some key points:

1) If churches were exempt, they argued, why aren't institutions that base their bylaws on the same faith-based principles?

2) "The Department of Health and Human Services hardly seems like the appropriate place for such a determination to be made," wrote Mark Benedetto, the president of the University of Sioux Falls in South Dakota, a school founded by Baptists in 1872. "I am concerned that the regulations as written will violate the conscience of our institution as it relates to the health care plan that we offer to our students--the exemption is for employer plans, as written it does not appear to also include the student plans.

3) "Not only would this force our institution to violate our religious convictions by offering emergency contraceptives to our students, it would put us in the awkward position of offering a health care plan to our employees that is consistent with their religious convictions while offering another to our students that violates their religious convictions."

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careless fills

8:15 am on Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I understand that the Catholic church does "endorse" or at least allows the rhythm method for birth control "on some level" for married people. That seems to cover the "moral obligation" that Susan suggests might exist in a relatively natural way. Perhaps Fr. Damick can clarify.

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Fr. Andrew S. Damick

8:28 am on Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I am not a Roman Catholic, but my understanding of Roman Catholic doctrine is that it is artificial birth control which is regarded as inherently sinful, which is bound up in the larger doctrinal picture of marriage as necessarily being open to children. (Indeed, one of the reasons for which the RCC will grant an annulment of marriage is that one of the spouses intended not to have children when they were getting married.)

Missy Moyer-Schneck

6:50 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I think I am more confused by the un God like remarks by Gregorio and then the "God bless" at the end. Very hypocritical.

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Special

11:26 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Jenae thank you for sharing your story. I am gald your mom and dad made the right choice. With that being said, I feel Women have to right to choice. If a women decides to have an abortion it's her body, her baby, and her decision. I am not here to judge. Until you walk ten miles in someone else shoes, we should be careful who we judge.

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Jenae Holtzhafer

11:42 pm on Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Thanks for your comment, Special. No judgement intended ... just a different perception of the issue from my personal experience. It's often we hear the argument for one side or another, but I haven't heard from many who perhaps were in my shoes as a 'lucky one.'

It's painful to think of lives lost that could perhaps be doing good things in the world, just as I have tried to do with the life I was given.

It truly is a moral issue and one that is only between the person and God. I strive not to judge others, for as you said, we haven't walked in their shoes. I know people who have dealt with abortion and I think no less of them. My heart does hurt for them, for I know it's not something that has just disappeared. It will always be with them.

But my personal belief is that once conception has occurred, there is life. I've seen the heart beat for both of my sons as early as six weeks. Life is a miracle and one we should cherish despite how it happened. Probably idealistic, but that's just how I feel.

Special

12:32 am on Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Jenae,

Your story will touch many hearts. I am confused about my position, so I try not to be judgmental. I admire your bravery and thank you again for sharing your story.

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Deana Goldasich

4:12 pm on Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Thank you Jenae. I, too, take this issue very personally. I try not to jump in...but every few years (2012 is one of those) I just cannot keep my mouth shut. I escaped Roe V. Wade by 17 months and was placed for adoption through Catholic Charities. I'm well aware that if I had been conceived just a few months later, I very well could have been aborted. It would have been easier and more accessible (and legal). I still thank my birthmother (who I do not know) as she could have found someone to perform the murder. But, I thank both our government (at the time) and the Church for literally saving my life. I get sick when people speak of abortion so cavalierly. It's a child in that woman's womb...a person...no matter how small. Thank you for sharing your story...

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Jenae Holtzhafer

4:19 pm on Wednesday, February 22, 2012

That's pretty amazing too, Deana. Thank YOU for sharing that! One of my favorite lines is from Dr. Seuss's "Horton Hears a Who!" ... "A person's a person no matter how small." :)

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Sue

8:40 am on Thursday, February 23, 2012

Every one of us is an abortion "survivor".

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Jeff Ames

5:14 pm on Saturday, September 22, 2012

Awesome story.
It's interesting how you never mentioned church or said anything negative. But there are comments above that attacking the church, raising issues that have nothing to do with your story at all. You parents are to be commended for standing tall, doing what's right, and allowing you to,live. Thank them for sharing you with all of us. Don't let the negative comments bother you. Many people are hurt by painful experiences and have angst every time the word "abortion" is used it polarizes their thinking either for or against. That gets old. I loved your story because it highlights the value of life, YOUR life. And I'm reposning to a young woman whom I would never know, had you been killed. I am proud of you and your parents. Stay strong!

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